My Life Vision

I been through everything you can think of and I'm only 18 years old. I made mistakes that I had to learn from. And I did some things that I wish I could take back but I cant . My life can only get better at this point. I see my future as something worth waiting on. I feel like God has a plan for me, and he putting me through all kinds of tests just to see if I'm strong enough to handle what he has in store for me. I would love to learn a lot more things in life and about my life as well. like why did my father walk out on my mom before I was even born, didn't even get to see his daughters face not just once. I always wanted to know what was the real story , the story that my mother never told me because I was to young to understand. I would love to learn how to be a better leader for my pairs. they seem to look up to me for some reason and I just let them down every time. so now I want to learn how to put aside my problems and just be a shoulder to cry on for someone else's. the biggest thing the I want to learn about is myself , I notice that I hold a lot in and don't know how to control my emotions at time. I need to learn that if I want to become some body or be an example for somebody else I have to start with my self, as in fixing things that I need to work on. My identity is a major thing for me, having to accept it and embrace the fact that I am this person and I cant change that for nothing. Well yea this is my vision on my life.